Ah where am I now

Ah where am I now

Author: Charles Wesley
Published in 25 hymnals

Representative Text

1 Ah, where am I now!
When was it, or how
That I fell from my heaven of grace?
I am brought into thrall,
I am stript of my All,
I am banish'd from Jesus's face.

2 Hardly yet do I know
How I let my Lord go,
So insensibly starting aside:
When the tempter came in
With his own subtle sin,
And infected my spirit with pride.

3 But I felt it too soon,
That my Saviour was gone,
Swiftly vanishing out of my sight;
My triumph and boast
On a sudden were lost,
And my day it was turn'd into night.

4 Only pride could destroy
That innocent joy,
And make my Redeemer depart;
But whate'er was the cause,
I lament the sad loss,
For the veil is come over my heart.

5 Ah! wretch that I am!
I can only exclaim,
Like a devil tormented within:
My Saviour is gone,
And has left me alone
To the fury of Satan and sin.

6 Nothing now can relieve,
Without comfort I grieve,
I have lost all my peace and my pow'r;
No access do I find
To the friend of mankind;
I can ask for his mercy no more.

7 Tongue cannot declare
The torment I bear,
(While no end of my troubles I see)
Only Adam could tell
On the day that he fell,
And was turn'd out of Eden, like me.

8 Driven out from my God,
I wander abroad,
Thro' a desert of sorrows I rove;
And how great is my pain,
That I cannot regain
My Eden of Jesus' love!

9 I never shall rise
To my first paradise,
Or come my Redeemer to see:
But I feel a faint hope
That at last he will stoop,
And his pity shall bring him to me.

Source: A Pocket Hymn Book: designed as a constant companion for the pious, collected from various authors (9th ed.) #CCVII

Author: Charles Wesley

Charles Wesley, M.A. was the great hymn-writer of the Wesley family, perhaps, taking quantity and quality into consideration, the great hymn-writer of all ages. Charles Wesley was the youngest son and 18th child of Samuel and Susanna Wesley, and was born at Epworth Rectory, Dec. 18, 1707. In 1716 he went to Westminster School, being provided with a home and board by his elder brother Samuel, then usher at the school, until 1721, when he was elected King's Scholar, and as such received his board and education free. In 1726 Charles Wesley was elected to a Westminster studentship at Christ Church, Oxford, where he took his degree in 1729, and became a college tutor. In the early part of the same year his religious impressions were much deepene… Go to person page >

Text Information

First Line: Ah where am I now
Author: Charles Wesley
Language: English
Notes: Second part of hymn starting with "How happy are they"
Copyright: Public Domain



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